The last two months of my life have been absolute, and utter hell. All the alumni patients warn you, but nothing on earth could prepare someone for a stem cell transplant. I have never experienced such pain, such nausea, or the wish to just slip away in my sleep. It's so hard to fight when you're that weak. It was a emotional, and physical roller coaster for everyone involved.
After a total of 7 days of chemotherapy, 4 blood transfusions, 5 platelet transfusions, and one stem cell infusion, I am happy to say I am recovery at home with a new immune system slowly growing inside me. The process was in two grueling phases that spanned over two months. To type everything that happened would be to write a novel - honestly, don't want to relieve many of those terrifying days. I did try my best to document the transplant through Live Facebook videos which can be found here: https://www.facebook.com/pg/thetubefedwife/videos/
Phase One Videos consists of the first chemotherapy, the harvest, and some pre-testing, while HSCT videos are the actual transplant procedure. They go from Day -5 to Day +10. Upon viewing these videos please remember, this was a live, raw, and unfiltered journey - some of which is very unpleasant, and emotionally upsetting.
I learned so many incredible things while in Chicago. The care I received there is unlike anything I have experienced. They actual helped clarify so many of my diagnosis, plus all of their physicians are on the same page so I never felt flung between two care providers opinions... I have such a hard time with that at home and it can lead to some confusing coordination of care! lol After thorough evaluation of my organs, the transplant team noticed minimal fibrosis, only existing in my vascular system and skin. Many of my physicians in Seattle just kind of blame everything on fibrosis without really taking a look since Scleroderma is in my chart. As it turns out, fibrosis was not the reason my digestive tract was paralyzed, and the reason I was always short of breathe is even more surprising!
|The start of chemo.|
|My Stem cell Infusion!|
Basically I went to Chicago, and everything I thought I knew about my diagnosis changed. It's incredible what new sets of eyes can do for a patient that fell into stagnant care. While I talk mostly about Scleroderma on my blog, it is only one of many clinical manifestations of Mixed Connective Tissue Disease, my actual diagnosis. MCTD is a rare autoimmune, connective tissue disease with features of three distinct diseases, paired with the findings of high U1-RNP antibodies. The three distinct diseases are Scleroderma, Lupus, and Myositis. This is why MCTD patients are extremely unpredictable, and extremely hard to treat - we are made up of so many illnesses, what do you treat first?! While we have manifestations of all three diseases, we are also our own separate entity with our own quirks. Chicago had actually never treated a patient on an MCTD protocol for this reason; however, after reviewing my case, especially with the severe history of scleroderma in the vascular system and digestive system, I was approved to be the first patient treated specifically for MCTD!
|The researching physician!|
I never, ever thought I would say that again! I can practically feel the peristalsis move down my esophagus, and it's incredible! Food no longer stays stagnant in my stomach, and I no longer soil myself! It's not perfect, but it's enough to sustain a human life! I truly feel like I received a miracle - a miracle I worked my ass off for! lol ;) My shortness of breath has also decreased, and so have my POTS symptoms which is amazing - though that may be attributed to the waist high compression garments as well. There are still things I feel have yet to changed, such as my joint swelling and pain, but I am told I'll start to notice more and more improvement over the next few years! For now I recover, and grow my new immune system!
I am extremely grateful to my Scleroderma Specialist who referred me to the HSCT program, and of course the team of researching physicians in Chicago that just added so many years to my life! I am also humbled, and overwhelmed with love, by everyone who supported me on this journey through their beautiful comments, kind messages, fundraising, or simply quiet prayers.
For the first time, in a long time, I am so excited for what the future holds!